Worst lover in miles around.

Rain poured like crazy last night and this morning, what does that mean?

Slept for approximately 17 hours in the last 24 hours, and I skipped school today.
Attended the higher mother tongue (hmt) camp on Monday and didn't sleep for the whole night.
Was just stoning around in the canteen in the company of Eugene.
Slept through the chinese lessons yesterday as I was just too tired.
Went home after that and skipped math too.
Slept from 1230 to around 1930 woke up and ate some snacks, talked on the phone, basically slacked around, was still tired you see.

Fell asleep around 12 plus and then was awaken by Xh calling me around 5am, telling me he was leaving for outfield already.
Messaged for a while then called Eugene.
Went back to sleep and as awaken around 10 am by a message.
So slacked around in bed and here I am now, giving my blog an update.
Today shall be a study day as I told both Xh and Eugene.

Maybe it's just me, but I have no idea what to do.
Is it really that simple? Somehow I have no idea.

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When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise

Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly (my butterfly)

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly.