I'd really like to know the reason behind the way the hits on my web counter's been jumping lately.
Been having an average of 5 hits per day and suddenly it goes up to 19.
I really wonder who has been paying my blog a visit, or is it just raking up some unwanted publicity?
Reason why I made this private was cuz this is my blog and I have the final say here.
Don't need no body to judge what I do, or what I say for the only one who has the right to, is God.
Know for a fact that some how, some people managed to come in, doesn't really bother me about the fact that they commented on my life.
Yet the thing I want to know is how they even managed to come into here in the first place.
Made me somewhat suspicious about the people I let into my blog, so did some major clearing up.
But 'til now, I'm still unsure what went wrong back then, doesn't really affect me much now for I've more pressing things on my mind to ponder about.
Said I'd spent today studying didn't I?
Well surprise surprise, I didn't study at all.
Spent most the day slacking around and there's math lessons tomorrow, from 8am to 4pm, tell me it isn't true, seriously.
2 hours of math is enough to kill me, now it's 8 whole hours, doubt there'll be much breaks in between.
Been absolutely ages since I last thought of Qing Hong, I know this is really random but true.
Saw him online in MSN and was considering clicking on his nick and talking to him.
Yet I remembered that I was the one who initiated the end of the friendship.
It's quite sad how I started blogging because he asked me to, and now, I'm blogging in the same blog but he's not here in my life, not anymore.
We've both changed far too much, yet I'll always hold the memories I had with him dearly in my heart.
He showed me the possibility of loving again after losing far more than I ever thought possible.
Made me feel like I was heaven on Earth.
But it's for the best that we went on our separate ways in life, I'll never regret loving him.
If I had another chance, to either love him or to not have known him at all, I'll still make the same choice, even if it means going through the pain all over again.
That's how much he means.. meant to me.
Well, it's time to go upstairs, stop playing games and focus on my math.
Tomorrow, I'll start studying, I promise.
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I'm sittin' here all by myself just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out 'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if I'm on my own
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand we've got nothing left to prove
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did..
P/S: I'll never love another the way I loved you, for you were my one and only best friend. Yet it's too late to just kiss and make up.
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