Today my life begins.

Recess week's over and sad to say, I wasn't productive at all. I know I said that I would spend recess week studying and catching up on lectures/tutorials/everything but I didn't manage to do so. There's been so much on my mind that I have been unable to get rid off and honestly, I let myself go. I've never felt this out of control of my emotions before, or this tired. But it's all over now, and even though I would like nothing better than to air everything out here, I know it's not the right thing to do. The people around me know what's going on and that's all that matters.

From now on, I'm going to be a better person, I'm not going to procrastinate, and I'm going to try harder in life. I won't give up on any thing that I have right now, and I will not falter or fall anymore. I'm a strong girl because of all the shit I've been through and that's who I will be no matter what happens next. God will guide me through my darkest moments and He will never give up on me, or forsake me. And so, I won't give up on myself as well.

To you, thank you for making me see what I've had in my life all along. Maybe you will never know me as the better person I'm going to become, but know that my changes are because of you. Should you ever come back into my life, you'll see all that I've achieved, and I know you'll be proud of me. And 'till then, know that I've always loved you. (And maybe I always will.)