Friendships.

After listening to the conversation during study session today, it really got me thinking. I always used to think that relationships were probably the most complicated "ship" to get involved in. After all, there's always the possibility of lies and hanky panky behind one's back. But what hurts the most is usually how you expect your other half to be the one that understands you the most, the one that stands up for you even though no one else does so, and hence, when he is the one who actually turns his back against you, the pain is a million times worst than what a mere friend would have inflicted on you.

However, relationships are rather clear cut (in my world at least). It's either you're lying or you're not. It's either you're hiding something or you're not. I don't have to worry about fats backstabbing me or anything cuz I know he surely won't. We definitely complain about one another to our respective friends, but then again, who doesn't? Moreover, we will always make it up to one another in the end, there's always the sun after the rain. That much I'm certain of. I love you baby :)

Yet friends, they are the uncertain ones. I know my current girlz will never be like that, after all, you can see what type of people they are from the start, and I know I love each and every one of them dearly, hear that A, MT, G, and O? :D

I get annoyed with them some times, I quarrel with some all the time, but in the end, we know that our bond won't just end because of some petty quarrel, we understand and know each other better than that. I know that I have my moments when I'm busy being a bitch but they still forgive me for that. This is how I define what friends really are.

Some others, however, never do know how to appreciate the ones who have been there for them, for the past few years. Not days, not months, years. They just throw aside all the other friends who have stood by them, who have tolerated all the shit they have thrown to them, who even cover up your lies by telling themselves over and over again that they must forget.

You know, the reason why they bother to even drop the matter is not because they forgive you, but because they are simply just too tired to care. Why can't you bloody see what the hell is in front of your eyes before choosing to hurt them?

I'm not even bothering to comment on your actions, everyone can see for themselves just what you've done. All I want is to stop my dears from caring about you anymore. The more they care, the more they get hurt by you. The funny thing is that I just don't see why they bother to tolerate anything from you any more. It's pretty obvious where your priorities lie, as one of the said, you've only know those people for like what, 3 months? And you've known my dears for more than 3 years, they are the ones who have stood by you through it all. And even though others question their actions of allowing you to come back to them over and over again, they still choose to embrace you back. They treated you as one of their closest friends no matter how much shit you've given them, they've been hurt over and over again by your actions and they still choose to give in and examine their actions thinking that they may be the ones who are at fault.

Bloody hell, you're the bitch that's at the wrong all this time and they blamed it on themselves.

I've heard it all, the mistakes you've made, the comments you've said, yes, all of it. And I've come to the conclusion that you're probably the luckiest slut out there and you don't even know it. You've got some of the best friends one could ask for and you're throwing them away.

I just hope that it's either my dears finally give up on you, which I know they won't. Or you just fucking wake up and see what the hell you have before it's too late. They deserve a better friend than you will ever be. And you totally do not deserve them at all.

I've given much thought to each and every friend I have, and even though I haven't kept in contact with most of them, I'll drop each and every one of them a personalised text to let them know just how much they mean to me. After all, friends like them can't be found around every corner.

Love you all so much <3