I've put away a short chapter of my life, a part where you and I played the main leads, it was one of the happiest scenes I've ever acted in, I swear. Maybe I never really managed to be one of the best actresses, but you never acted like you cared. Looking back at where I've come from, I'll never regret ending it all, 'cuz you just weren't the guy I thought I fell for. Good bye memories, good bye all the friends I've gained in the process of knowing you, but really, good bye Alca.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
Rascal Flatt's What hurts the most :)
National Day wasn't perfect, yet some how, it was. Sepnt the day with Desmond and his 3 other friends(Jun Jie, Gerald and Hwee May). First went to Hougang Mall to find them then took a bus down to AMK hub to watch Money not enough 2. It made me cry like siao ok. Desmond was like "Eh don't cry lei." Walao, damn sad la, those 3 brothers worry more about their convenience and money then about their mother whom they owe everything they have to la. Cried like fuck and it has been quite a long time since I last cried, then watch this movie, my days of not crying all buang. But still, it's a good show :) (Damn all those people who said it sucked. They mother neh neh, no feelings at all. _|_)
So our aim was to head to City Hall for the fireworks display but since it was still sort of early, we had dinner at the food court then headed over. But damn, when we reach there, everyone was leaving. The parade was over and I missed my fireworks :'( So unhappy but we decided to head to Suntec instead. Walk there half way they say want to go Vivo terrace sit there since also no where to go. Took a train there then 3 of them sat one side and I sat with Desmond. Talked a bit and well, kind of confused me more? Sort of.
Left Vivo at 10.30 with Desmond and he sent me home. Walked from Serangoon station instead of taking a bus and well, we sat at the playground again. Just talked and talked but I wasn't in a really great mood. Felt so damn tired all of a sudden and just felt like siting there and staring into space but the dumb person beside me won't leave me alone, kept trying to make me smile. Well, according to him, he likes seeing me laughing.
Slept at 1 plus and didn't wake up to the two calls which he called. It's nearly 10 now and I bet he's still sleeping. Well ok, he reached home really late last night. But that's not the point, even if he slept earlier than me, he'll still wake up later than me. Hah, but I'll definitely be taking an afternoon nap later so it doesn't really matter I guess, can even out the number of hours both of us sleep.
♥Favourite boy:)
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