Your girl.

说你为什么 为什么要走 说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱 求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却(还)拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过
Do Do Re Re Mi Mi Re Do
Do Do Re Mi Do

然后连话都不说 继续沉默
连朋友都没得作 为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来做

Perhaps, we were never meant to be, this much I understand.
I'm seeing everything that I was supposed to see months ago but never wanted to.
Yet last night, when I listened to 越爱越难过, many thoughts piled up in my mind and I thought them through.
I know I'll regret telling you that we were impossible, like I always do, but this time, I really don't want to back down on my decision already.
Too tired to care, don't really want to either.

You were once in a lifetime, this much I've got to admit.
The one guy I never really managed to get over, up 'til right now, there's still a piece of me with you.
Our fates keep entwining, yet we were not meant to be more than just friends, I see that now.
You said we were "close friends", that we shall remain.

I know every single time I said "I don't want to care already", I never manage to keep to my words.
It's just so hard letting go of memories, I for one understand how fucking hard it is to do so.
For haven't I still kept a piece of memory from each of my past relationships? Even the first one?
I'll never be able to understand myself, for I'll forever be having contradicting feelings.
As from reading what I've typed so far, one can already tell that my words have been contradicting each other.

Some how, I just wish to admit to you that I still do love you.
But it's like no matter what, I know that you'll never come back, not in the way I want you to.
We've agreed upteen times that we're not impossible, yet since when have we been possible?
I know the way I've been treating you has been both hot and cold.
It's cuz the times where I've been thinking a lot (like last night), I start asking myself many questions which I have no answers to.
So I start getting very frustrated about it, thus the coldness.
Yet at other times when I haven't been upset cuz of anything, that's when I treat you 'hot'.

I really don't know what to think of, honestly.
I hate myself for not being to get over you.
And I hate you for making me fall for you in the first place.

Fine, I shall stop taking about unhappy things and think of happier ones to blog about.

Well, for one, I've finished my POA notes and History notes(at least those tested in the prelims).
Now left 2 chapters of Chem and I'm done with all my notes.
And it's like my notes are circulating around the class? o.O
POA already circulated among the girls.
Today must finish Chem then lend Ben, Joelle wants to borrow my Phys notes.

My notes are the bomb, hahahaha (like real).

I still want to be your girl.