And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing, watching the sunset
Fade to black, show the names, play a happy song."
Sucks to be typing stuff when the "j" key on the keyboard is spoilt and every time I want to type that particular letter, I've got to ctrl+v.
But before that, I've got to hunt for the letter to copy it.
So irritating but the good thing is that the only word which I frequently use which has "j" in it is "just" so that's a good thing I guess?
Sorry, been rambling on.
So I had Literature remedial again after school and I have to admit that I have zero passion for that subject.
I know it beautifies things and makes the world a better place or something but seriously, I just can't seem to see the inner meaning to any thing.
And I'm a pure lit student, see the irony?
So I had GB after lit and that sucked, some how.
I'm the fucking flag bearer and I'll have to have my arm lifted at 90 degrees throughout the National Anthem, Pledge, school song and even the students' creed.
That's like more than 10 minutes?
Fuck, my arms so gonna break.
And what if I screw up and drop the flag or worst, faint?
*freaks out for about 10 hours*
GB day's on Monday some more, fuck.
I've absolutely no idea where I threw my uniform to.
And I still have to polish my boots.
I'm so screwed.
Eugene's so cute.
He's currently at a pub celebrating his cousin's birthday and he called me just to ask why I took so long to reply (I was too lazy to :X)
Told him so and he asked me to reply him when I felt like it.
Haha.
Then we hung up and he called me less than 5 minutes later just to ask me to listen to a song.
男人女人, his brother and his cousin was singing.
When asked why he called me to listen to the song, he said cuz he knew I loved it.
So cute right :)
"我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生"
If someone tells me this, I'll melt, I swear.
Wait, make it someone whom I want to hear it from.
Ok, so I don't have the mood to study today again, don't know why :(
Prelims are in a freaking 12 more days only and I'm like so damn slack, tell me how.
I know next week onwards I'll be staying back everyday after school for the self study thing.
But now howwwwwwwwwww.
Ahhh, I think I tonight slack luh, last night to slack already.
Tomorrow onwards I chiong studies like a good girl ok.
And and I know I'm random but I fucking want to pierce my lip, like seriously.
Been wanting to do so for quite some time but just can't thanks to Os.
I can't wait cuz I think that's the first thing I'll do after my papers are done.
I don't care if people say I look like an ah lian cuz I know I don't look like one.
C'mon, people automatically brand those who have multiple piercings on their ears or those who have tattoo as "gangsters".
SO NOT, LOSER.
Ever heard of stereotypes?
It's not nice to be one of them so who said having multiple piercings or tattoos mean you're a gangster?
If you think so, you're bull shit :)
I know that the idea came from the fact that well, it's "in" for them to have those, but seriously, I have multiple piercings on my ears yet I am so not a gangster :)
So I'm gonna get my lip piercing and I don't care if my parents get angry.
So happy thinking about it.
Let me tell you about a loser.
Firstly, here's an extract of the conversation.
i am back la xiiao kelvin is here i love my bro and sister u all huat ar i wan go in liao la T.T hope i wont go inside la yy i ca says:
u malay huh
i am back la xiiao kelvin is here i love my bro and sister u all huat ar i wan go in liao la T.T hope i wont go inside la yy i ca says:
?
Yiqing. says:
-.- no
i am back la xiiao kelvin is here i love my bro and sister u all huat ar i wan go in liao la T.T hope i wont go inside la yy i ca says:
than
Yiqing. says:
i'm PURE chinese
Yiqing. says:
like wtf
Hello?
He which eye put stamp uh?
I look like a Malay, like fuck.
It's not that I'm being racist here but hello loser, I'm 100% pure Chinese.
My friends say I look so fair and he fucking said I look like a Malay?!
I know that there are Malays who are fair but fuck, I look like one?
Idiot loser, which eye need me help him dig out and check.
Wtf ok.
I didn't bother talking to him and he didn't get it.
Still kept talking to me and nudging me.
Fuck.
I fucking hate people who nudge me.
And he keeps going "Huh".
Huh lam pa la.
Freak, I'm becoming vulgar but I'm just so pissed off now.
Known you for more than 2 year already, and yet, there are things which I don't understand. Why do you treat me like a stranger some times, yet like a sweet rose at others. You called me "darling" just now, yet I dare not believe that what you say is for real. Why is it that when you're not nice to me, I wish you were nice. Yet when you're nice, I doubt your intentions. I just can't seem to be able to trust you totally, some how there's this lingering shadow that never seems to be able to fade no matter how much I try to get rid of it. Is it the result of the scars you left behind? Or is it just my nature, the one which I've developed due to being hurt far too many times. Honestly, I've been asking myself that question many times and I've never been able to find the correct answer. It's been so long already my friend, you're the oldest male friend that I'm still contacting on a daily basis. Tell me, what should I do right now? I've said it before that I'm not going to commit myself into any relationships until after my Os but that's such a long time. I was the one who said I wouldn't. Yet it's 4 more months, a lot can happen in a matter of minutes, let alone months. Yet what is there to do? I can't commit myself into anything more than a friendship and we both know that very well. If we were meant to be, what is 4 months? I know I once told you this "If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, that means that you two were meant to be" ot something like that. I've let you go upteen times yet each and everytime, you came back to me. But yet, each time you mentioned that it is possible for us to be together. I don't deny the possibility for it's possile for anyone to be with anyone. Well almost. But the thing now is that each time you say it, yet we never got together. So what makes this time different from the rest of the times? I really don't know what I'm feeling for you right now and I really don't wish to fins out about it. I think it would be better to just ignore these unwanted feelings and just concentrate on my studies but it's moments like today when I have no mood to study that I realize how confused I am inside and that I've no idea what to do. Sucks to be in this type of situation some times. But thinking about it, if we were still together, today we would have been together for 2 years, 4 months and 27 days. That's a freaking long time. I'll always remember 120206 where I cried when you asked me. It was silly of me, yet sweet of you. I'll always remember the days.
You're the boy I can't resist.
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