Leave me alone.

落泪以前再看一眼你模糊侧脸 这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你而你凝视窗外的阴天 一句抱歉都僵在嘴边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了 诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了 雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活
你的笑脸还在胸前晃动着昨天 为何回忆会让人晕眩
如果我们继续向前走进雨里面 会不会有溶解的危险
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了 诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了 雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活
明明从前 连争执都很甜美 现在怎会说句话就弄痛一边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了 诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了 雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活

Perhaps things won't be able to go back to normal again, it's time to face the music.
It's too late to try to make amendments so the only thing that I can do is make do with what I have and be happy about it.

Xh, I'm sorry that we've drifted so far apart from one another and some how, some things' have changed.
Perhaps it's cuz you're never really here, at least not when I need you the most.
You're almost always tired and never free for me, I don't blame you for that.
I know that you'll be, cuz you're an army man, how can you have time for me?
Moreover, it's my fault for jumping into this before even making sure of everything.
It's my fault really, that ever since the camp, I've distanced myself away from you.
I just really hope that maybe, things will head back to a better pace where I can sort things out.
Avoiding you will get me no where, that much I'm certain of.

The closer I try to get to you, the further away you go, is this what you wanted from me all along?
I've no idea at all where things between us are headed to, neither do I have the wish to find out.
It's all just so confusing, tell me, what do you want?
You say one thing, you do another.
Makes me wonder if what you say not matter at all.

Been quite "bo-chup" lately for I don't want to get upset by anything.
So if anything seems like it's gonna upset me, instinctively, I get the walls up.
I know due to this, I've been hurting some people, but it's a self-defence technique I've taught myself.
I don't want to get hurt by people anymore, it's stupid really to let myself fall into that trap again.
So I just choose not to care, serves the purpose of "protecting" myself really well I think.

I've had my nap just now and I'll start my revising now.
Hope Xh's gonna call me back soon, there's so many things I've left to settle with him.