Keep holding on, even if it's for a little while longer.

Been drowning in waves of thoughts, cried during badminton.
There's so much I wished to say, so I put them in a 3 letters.
One for him to read, then the other two's either or.
Felt so optimistic when I wrote the "Holding on" one, felt like crying when I wrote the "Let go".

"The greatest distance is not when one is on one side of the Earth and the one you love is on the other end. It's when you love him, and he loves you back, but you know that fate will forever keep you apart."

Wanted to find him after GB, to pass him them and get an answer once and for all.
It's too hard for me to be hanging on to a thread when I see two safety nets below to jump into.
Why hang on to danger when safe ground is just a stone's throw away?

But just now, you managed to change my mind with just a few sentences.
It's really scary how you can affect me with just a few words.


Yiqing. says:
hello dear, busy?
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
tonight?
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
u noe wad i was busy with
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
cutting hair
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
making a new look
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
going back to sch
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
proper and all
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
changing for u
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
wanna see
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Yiqing. says:
it's ok
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
how fking short and ugly it is now
Yiqing. says:
i don't want you to change
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
see
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Yiqing. says:
why do you want to change for me?
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
cos i want to go into ur world
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
not the other way round
Yiqing. says:
you look really cute
Yiqing. says:
don't worry about it
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
see the eyes
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
so fking big
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
see ah

-- Proceeds to look into the webcam and opens his eyes wide. So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!--

Yiqing. says:
cute mah :D
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
siao liao
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
-.-
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Yiqing. says:
been so long since i last saw you though
Yiqing. says:
but really, i don't deserve all this
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
...
Yiqing. says:
i really appreaciate all these, but i love you the way you are
Yiqing. says:
you don't have to change for me, really
Yiqing. says:
'cuz i fell in love with who you were from the start and not who i can change you to become
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
...
Yiqing. says:
what's with the "..."s?
Yiqing. says:
dear, does that mean you want me bacl
Yiqing. says:
back*
Yiqing. says:
or am i just thinking too much again?
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
i want u back
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
but i need time
Yiqing. says:
hmm ok
Yiqing. says:
i'll wait :)
xiiao`SKY!- Full Of Regrets. says:
smile
Yiqing. says:
i'll be happy if you're happy.

You tell me what to do.
He can change my mind/mood/thoughts with a matter of words, it's so freaky that I don't know what to do.
Maybe, I'll just hold on to the piece of string a while longer, just a while is enough.

Though maybe, you're just lying to me to keep me holding on a while longer, I don't mind.
'cuz boy, you made me a happy girl tonight.

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I've been talking to Pearleen so many times lately.
If only I knew that talking to her would make me feel this much better, I wouldn't have MIA-ed from her for so long.
I missed talking about anything in the world to her, and even if I cried, I know she'll always be there to wipe my tears away.
It's been so long since we last went out, and we'll be going to Sentosa on Sunday, I really can't wait.
Half tanning, half studying, the ultimate combination.
(That's if we even study to start with.. heh.)
And maybe dawn's joining us too, I can't wait ok.
Double love when Dawn and Pear comes out with meeeeeeeee ^^

Not to mention how much Joelle, Audrey and Mingting have been listening to me ramble on and on about how terrible my life is.
Come to think of it, I'll never have better friends than this.
Super love ok.

Well, I'm in the mood to study tonight, maybe I can even finish my SS notes!
I've been procrastinating so many times it's hopeless.
Tonight though..